My Light In The Distance

My Light In The Distance 

It was dark.

Cold.

Sweat trickled down my face.

I stumbled along a dark path,

Not knowing where to go…

Not knowing what to do.

I was lost.

In a dark place.

All alone.

Friends. 

Family.

Eighty percent gone.

In the good times, 

They seemed to be there.

Like the shadows,

They vanished in the dark times.

I was shivering with cold.

Where do I go?

What do I do?

I heard my name being called faintly,

Somewhere ahead.

There was a light, far away,

In the distance.

And when my name was called again,

It it seemed to get brighter.

I started to feel hopeful.

I ran towards the light, knowing now,

That my true love hadn’t forsaken me.

They were calling.

I knew that voice now.

Suddenly I felt hands shaking me,

A voice telling me to wake up.

I opened my eyes and squinted,

Looking around confusedly,

In a room filled with sunlight.

And there you was, smiling at me.

“Hey sleepyhead. Another nightmare?”

“Yes,” I said, breathing hard. “It was dark. And I felt really cold. Then I heard your voice and I felt so… relieved and happy. And hopeful.”

“Well you’re sweating like a pig.” You gave me a gentle kiss. “I made breakfast. Coming?”

“Sure!”

I got out of bed happily, glad it was just a mixture of my thoughts and a dream.

Glad I had you.

Glad you stayed with me.

Glad of everything.

Smiling, I got out of bed.

Whenever I heard your loving voice,

The dark seemed to fade.

Whenever I felt you close to me,

I was happy.

And whenever I saw the love in your eyes,

For me,

All for me…

I was free.

And no matter what might happen

Between you and I,

I would forever cherish you.

And always remember you as…

My lovely Star

My Ray of Sunshine,

My hopeful Light…

In The Distance.

Makala Thomas
  

I Found Myself πŸ˜Ž

Staring out the window at the rain falling.
Thinking of your lies and deceptiveness.
Wondering what went wrong with us,
But not hoping for any kind of reconciliation.
The rain is falling harder.
I wonder about you, of course I do.
I wonder if you think of me, miss me.
But like Taylor Swift says in her song,
We are never ever getting back together.
You thought I’d never have the guts to finish with you.
You thought I was weak.
You used to shout at me, swear at me.
But still I stuck around because I loved you.
You cheated.
That was the last straw.
I ended it with you, left your life.
And now you’ve seen sense and realised you hit jackpot when we was together.
You want me back.
But I’ll never go back to you.
It took me a long time to find myself and come to grips with everything, be stronger.
Smarter.
Wiser.
I learnt to put myself before others.
Love myself.
Depend on me, myself and I.
Because some friends are like shadows.
There with you when everything is bright and merry,
Gone when darkness arrives.
*Sigh*
I reject your pleas of forgiveness.
I reject your pathetic existence in my life.
We are done.
Like Taylor Swift sings may I reiterate,
We are never ever getting back together.

Makala Thomas 😎