LADY IN A RED DRESS

Lady In A Red Dress
I looked around the room…
I had cooked for quite a few.
But what I couldn’t deny
Was the woman who caught my eye.
Her figure was divine.
I knew she would decline…
An offer to go outside
So to the house we were tied.
I cleared my throat and announced
That the food was ready; they bounced
To the dining area, and I sighed.
I wished that I could hide.
At this woman I couldn’t stop staring
After we ate, I was past caring.
I tapped her shoulder and said
“You’ve been running through my head.
Please come for a walk with me.
I know for now you’re free.”
My lady in the red dress smiled.
“I like how your hair is styled.”
“You do?” I said, heart racing.
I almost started pacing.
“You have me in a mess.
I ADORE that bright red dress!”
“Why thank you,” she said, smiling,
Inside I felt I was dying.
“So, let’s go on this walk.
I assume you want to talk?”
“Yes,” I said quickly, blushing.
To the garden I went rushing.
I turned to her, starting to say
Everything I felt today.
“I love your cute brown eyes.
Seeing you here was a surprise.
Your smile is so heart warming…
I can tell something is forming.
I want to be with you,
And I hope you like me too.
I noticed you glancing at me,
And I feel it’s meant to be.
Sweetheart, do respond.
We can’t be gone for long.”
She laughed, and I smiled too.
“You sir, have thought this through.
I’m flattered that you like me.
But there will never ever be a ‘we’.
I’m married and have two children.
My husband is one in a million.
I came here because of your mother.
She and my Aunty,
They know each other.
I don’t know what you’re thinking,
But let the reality sink in.
I’m not a slab of meat,
And I would never cheat.
So please, let’s go inside,
And you can hold on to your pride.
Yes I’m flattered, that’s true,
But I have no interest in you.”
She turned and walked away,
And I watched her in dismay.
I wished I hadn’t spoken.
My heart and soul was broken.
It was true I didn’t know her,
And already, things were over.
Late that night I laid in bed,
Her words rushing around my head.
I wished I never saw her.
That I could be how I was before her.
She has gripped my mind and soul
For now I just could not be whole.
I tossed and turned, stressed…
Over the beauty in the bright red dress.
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Makala Thomas.

Thunder Was Booming

Thunder was booming.

Rain was pouring.

I had no coat.

I was soaked.

But I knew where I was going.

I was going to the home of the one

Who had my heart.

They had moved on months ago,

And I was stuck in a mental cage

Surrounded by memories

Missing the happiness I felt

While with them.

Thunder was booming.

Rain was pouring.

I walked and walked

Not wanting to get the bus

My determination

Gave me strength to walk

For over an hour

In this horrible weather

All I could think was

“I’m going to get you back,

No matter what it takes.

It was me that messed up,

And I’m paying for it.

But I will get you back.”

Thunder was booming.

Rain was pouring.

Your house is finally in sight.

I run and ring the doorbell

Over five times.

I see the lights are on so I know

You are in.

You open the door and stare at me.

Water is running down my face,

But I don’t care.

The first thing I managed was

“I was an idiot. I don’t want everything

We built to crumble because of me.

I just-”

You pull me into the house

Before I could finish saying

What I had to say.

“You really are an idiot. You’re going

To get the flu or something worse!”

I hang my head, then you smile.

“You’re my idiot. I’m sorry too.

I was going to call you today,

I wanted to call every day

Since we split.

I just decided to give you space.”

Thunder was booming.

Rain was pouring.

I was warm in a woolly tracksuit

I left here months ago.

We were snuggled on your couch

With hot chocolate,

Our free hands in each others.

I smiled, so glad I made the decision

To get you back.

You will always be my everything.

And even though I was afraid

Of being rejected,

I was determined to try anyway.

Love always finds a way.

Makala Thomas.

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A New Beginning

When life throws lemons at you, just make lemonade and take a sip of that sweet stuff.
This has been a good year in general for me. Someone decided to leave my life for reasons I’m not certain of, and someone from the past has re-entered it.
We all get ups and downs in life that’s just how it is. But it’s down to you what you make of it and how you handle it.
Sometimes life can be a little rough. I’m not saying it’s easy because then I would be a liar. I went through a lot in 2009 and the previous year, 2008, had been such a good one.
Since then, I have gotten back on my feet. Time healed me and I am a happy woman today. I finally found peace.
That’s life.
Even if it’s stormy at the moment in your life, that doesn’t mean you aren’t destined for sunshine.
2015 is going to be a good year I can feel it. That is why I’m writing this on the last day of 2014.
I have love, happiness, and plenty of hope.
I am positive.
I am looking forward to this New Beginning.

I Found Myself ðŸ˜Ž

Staring out the window at the rain falling.
Thinking of your lies and deceptiveness.
Wondering what went wrong with us,
But not hoping for any kind of reconciliation.
The rain is falling harder.
I wonder about you, of course I do.
I wonder if you think of me, miss me.
But like Taylor Swift says in her song,
We are never ever getting back together.
You thought I’d never have the guts to finish with you.
You thought I was weak.
You used to shout at me, swear at me.
But still I stuck around because I loved you.
You cheated.
That was the last straw.
I ended it with you, left your life.
And now you’ve seen sense and realised you hit jackpot when we was together.
You want me back.
But I’ll never go back to you.
It took me a long time to find myself and come to grips with everything, be stronger.
Smarter.
Wiser.
I learnt to put myself before others.
Love myself.
Depend on me, myself and I.
Because some friends are like shadows.
There with you when everything is bright and merry,
Gone when darkness arrives.
*Sigh*
I reject your pleas of forgiveness.
I reject your pathetic existence in my life.
We are done.
Like Taylor Swift sings may I reiterate,
We are never ever getting back together.

Makala Thomas 😎