Thunder Was Booming

Thunder was booming.

Rain was pouring.

I had no coat.

I was soaked.

But I knew where I was going.

I was going to the home of the one

Who had my heart.

They had moved on months ago,

And I was stuck in a mental cage

Surrounded by memories

Missing the happiness I felt

While with them.

Thunder was booming.

Rain was pouring.

I walked and walked

Not wanting to get the bus

My determination

Gave me strength to walk

For over an hour

In this horrible weather

All I could think was

“I’m going to get you back,

No matter what it takes.

It was me that messed up,

And I’m paying for it.

But I will get you back.”

Thunder was booming.

Rain was pouring.

Your house is finally in sight.

I run and ring the doorbell

Over five times.

I see the lights are on so I know

You are in.

You open the door and stare at me.

Water is running down my face,

But I don’t care.

The first thing I managed was

“I was an idiot. I don’t want everything

We built to crumble because of me.

I just-”

You pull me into the house

Before I could finish saying

What I had to say.

“You really are an idiot. You’re going

To get the flu or something worse!”

I hang my head, then you smile.

“You’re my idiot. I’m sorry too.

I was going to call you today,

I wanted to call every day

Since we split.

I just decided to give you space.”

Thunder was booming.

Rain was pouring.

I was warm in a woolly tracksuit

I left here months ago.

We were snuggled on your couch

With hot chocolate,

Our free hands in each others.

I smiled, so glad I made the decision

To get you back.

You will always be my everything.

And even though I was afraid

Of being rejected,

I was determined to try anyway.

Love always finds a way.

Makala Thomas.

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I Found Myself ðŸ˜Ž

Staring out the window at the rain falling.
Thinking of your lies and deceptiveness.
Wondering what went wrong with us,
But not hoping for any kind of reconciliation.
The rain is falling harder.
I wonder about you, of course I do.
I wonder if you think of me, miss me.
But like Taylor Swift says in her song,
We are never ever getting back together.
You thought I’d never have the guts to finish with you.
You thought I was weak.
You used to shout at me, swear at me.
But still I stuck around because I loved you.
You cheated.
That was the last straw.
I ended it with you, left your life.
And now you’ve seen sense and realised you hit jackpot when we was together.
You want me back.
But I’ll never go back to you.
It took me a long time to find myself and come to grips with everything, be stronger.
Smarter.
Wiser.
I learnt to put myself before others.
Love myself.
Depend on me, myself and I.
Because some friends are like shadows.
There with you when everything is bright and merry,
Gone when darkness arrives.
*Sigh*
I reject your pleas of forgiveness.
I reject your pathetic existence in my life.
We are done.
Like Taylor Swift sings may I reiterate,
We are never ever getting back together.

Makala Thomas 😎